Sara Pipilini joke from Ayko Ayo (dj at Bogarts & Franks)

3 nuns die and go to heaven, st peter is there and greets each one. He tells them that because they have been exceptionally good and devout they will be granted 6 months life back on earth as Anyone they want with no repercussions before they enter heaven, so the 1st nun says she wants to be Angelina Jolie, peter waves his hand and poof she is gone for the next six months as Angelina Jolie. The 2nd one thinks a bit and then says she wants to be Madonna, so st. peter waves his hand and poof she is Madonna. Finally he turns to the 3rd nun who tells him she wants to be the famous Sara Pipilini. he scratches his head in puzzlement and then says who. She tells him again that she wants to be the famous Sara Pipilini and pulls a newspaper out of her habit and hands it to him. well st. peter reads it and then begins laughing, looking at the nun, he tells her she misunderstood the newspaper, it wasnt about anyone named sara pipilini, it was the Sahara Pipeline that got laid by 1,400 men in 6 months.

Double Cheeseburger with Basil, Bacon, and Egg from Toni Stickfigure

Double Cheeseburger with Basil, Bacon, and Egg

this oh-so indulgent butter burger (melted butter is mixed into the meat for flavor) is worth the splurge. 
prep 30 minutes  

Grill 12 minutes

1         recipe Bacon Aioli or garlic and bacon flavored mayo
1 1/2   lbs. ground chuck (80 percent lean)
1/4      cup finely snipped fresh flat-leafed parsley
2         Tbp. unsalted butter, melted, then coloed to room temp.
4         os. mozzarella or smoked mozzarella cheese,  coarsly shredded
1         Tbsp. extra-virgin olive oil (optional)
4          eggs (optional)
4          hamburger buns
            fresh basil leaves   
8          slices of bacon, slow cooked over medium heat


1.  Prepare Bacon Aioli; set aside  (recipe follows)
2.  Build charcoal fire or preheat gas grill for direct cooking. In large bowl gently mix ground beef, parsley, butter, 1/2 tsp. salt, and 1/4 tsp. pepper; form into eight thin patties.  Equally divide cheese into four.  Place cheese between two thin patties; press and pinch edges to seal.
3. For fried eggs, in a large skillet heat oil over medium heat.  when oil shimmers, crack each egg into a small bowl; tip into skillet.  Sprinkle with salt and pepper.  Cook until desired doneness.
4.  Grill patties over medium heat (about 400 degrees f), covered for about 12 to 14 minutes, turning once midway through grilling.  Spread each bun with 2 Tbsp. Bacon Aioli; layer a patty and top with egg and bacon, and fresh basil.
Makes 4 burgers.

BACON AIOLI:  Preheat oven to 350 degrees f.  Place 16 unpeeled cloves of garlic on a sheet of aluminum foil.  drizzle with 1 Tbsp. olive oil, then bring up edges and roll and seal to from a packet.  Bake about 20 minutes, until garlic is very soft.  Meanwhile, heat large skillet over medium heat.  Cook 8 slices thick-sliced bacon, chopped, until crisp, stirring occasionally.  Drain bacon on paper towels.  When garlic is cooled enough to handle, squeeze cloves from the skins into a small bowl.  Mash with a fork.  Stir in bacon and 1 cup of mayonnaise.  makes 1 1/4 cup.                

Hope this brings you a smile today!!...Aine

Peter Marshall was the host asking the questions, of course.


Q. Paul, what is a good reason for pounding meat?
A. Paul Lynde: Loneliness!
(The audience laughed so long and so hard it took up almost 15 minutes of the show!)

Q. Do female frogs croak?
A. Paul Lynde: If you hold their little heads under water long enough.

Q. If you're going to make a parachute jump, at least how high should you be?
A. Charley Weaver: Three days of steady drinking should do it.

Q. True or False, a pea can last as long as 5,000 years.
A. George Gobel: Boy, it sure seems that way sometimes.

Q. You've been having trouble going to sleep. Are you probably a man or a woman?
A. Don Knotts: That's what's been keeping me awake.

Q. According to Cosmopolitan, if you meet a stranger at a party and you think that he is attractive, is it okay to come out and ask him if he's married?
A. Rose Marie: No wait until morning.

Q. Which of your five senses tends to diminish as you get older?
A. Charley Weaver: My sense of decency.

Q. In Hawaiian, does it take more than three words to say 'I Love You'?
A. Vincent Price: No, you can say it with a pineapple and a twenty.

Q. What are 'Do It,' 'I Can Help,' and 'I Can't Get Enough'?
A. George Gobel: I don't know, but it's coming from the next apartment.

Q. As you grow older, do you tend to gesture more or less with your hands while talking?
A. Rose Marie: You ask me one more growing old question Peter, and I'll give you a gesture you'll never forget.

Q. Paul, why do Hell's Angels wear leather?
A. Paul Lynde: Because chiffon wrinkles too easily.

Q. Charley, you've just decided to grow strawberries. Are you going to get any during the first year?
A.. Charley Weaver: Of course not, I'm too busy growing strawberries.

Q. In bowling, what's a perfect score?
A. Rose Marie: Ralph, the pin boy.

Q. It is considered in bad taste to discuss two subjects at nudist camps. One is politics, what is the other?
A. Paul Lynde: Tape measures.

Q. During a tornado, are you safer in the bedroom or in the closet?
A. Rose Marie: Unfortunately Peter, I'm always safe in the bedroom.

Q. Can boys join the Camp Fire Girls?
A. Marty Allen: Only after lights out.

Q. When you pat a dog on its head he will wag his tail. What will a goose do?
A. Paul Lynde: Make him bark?

Q. If you were pregnant for two years, what would you give birth to?
A. Paul Lynde: Whatever it is, it would never be afraid of the dark.

Q. According to Ann Landers, is there anything wrong with getting into the habit of kissing a lot of people?
A. Charley Weaver: It got me out of the army.

Q. It is the most abused and neglected part of your body, what is it?
A. Paul Lynde: Mine may be abused, but it certainly isn't neglected..

Q. Back in the old days, when Great Grandpa put horseradish on his head, what was he trying to do?
A. George Gobel: Get it in his mouth.

Q. Who stays pregnant for a longer period of time, your wife or your elephant?
A. Paul Lynde: Who told you about my elephant?

Q. When a couple have a baby, who is responsible for its sex?
A. Charley Weaver: I'll lend him the car, the rest is up to him

Q. Jackie Gleason recently revealed that he firmly believes in them and has actually seen them on at least two occasions. What are they?
A. Charley Weaver: His feet.

Q. According to Ann Landers, what are two things you should never do in bed?
A. Paul Lynde: Point and laugh


Hope this brings you a smile today!!...Aine
WE DON'T STOP LAUGHING BECAUSE WE GROW OLD, WE GROW OLD BECAUSE WE STOP LAUGHING!

Our unresolved history

Our unresolved history goes with us everywhere, nagging for resolution.

And resolution is possible. There are many ways of looking at human behavior just as there are a multitude of ways of perceiving and interpreting reality. In our paper, we present a manner of viewing repetitive patterns of behavior, thought, and feeling as valuable hints of a subterranean process that we construct in early childhood to provide a sense of predictability.


 I have yet to find an issue that cannot be subsumed under the headings of abandonment, abuse, and need to control.

These three themes, with all their varied representations, can be resolved without undue pain, change of personal history, or confrontation with parents, siblings, teachers, or any others significant in our past. Ours is an optimistic approach that has proven most effective over the last decade.

Human beings of all ages, nationalities, sexes, colours, and creeds share a deep need to feel safe. This encompasses both the need for emotional and physical safety. When we, as human beings, feel threatened (regardless of whether that threat is real, misperceived
 or imagined) we respond strongly. Our response may be fear, panic or terror; it may be anger, aggressiveness or paranoia; it may be withdrawal, paralysis or catatonia or any of these in combination. But there will be a response.

From our earliest infant struggles to survive, we have developed a need to respond to any perceived threat with efforts to control--to control ourselves, others, our environment, and even what may happen after our death. This need to control appears to be an integral part of the problems we have with ourselves, others, and our environment. It is the core of the interaction between two-year-olds fighting over a toy; it is the core of the interaction between husband and wife battling over who said what; it is the core of the interaction between the East and West warring over what ideology will be supreme; and it appears as the core of all great literature from Homer's Iliad to the writings of the contemporary Mexican essayist and poet Octavio Paz.

Thus in order to feel safe, we take on, with our mother's milk, a need to control. That need then puts us in situations where we feel threatened by abuse and/or abandonment--physical, mental, or emotional. Our usual response is to threaten others with abuse or abandonment e.g. "If you do that again I'll hit you," "leave you", "never speak to you again", or "I'll tell your mother." And so, a vicious circle is started that seems to have no beginning, no end, and no way out, just short spaces along the arc where a standoff provides some feeling of security and peace.

The Trade Off
There is no way to truly control the future, others, or even ourselves. The attempt to control ourselves tends to result in ulcers, migraines, hyper-tension, and other physical signals without truly keeping us the least bit safer from any true danger. The attempt to control others tends to result in rebellion, divorce, feuds, and wars, without truly keeping us the least bit safer from any true danger. The attempt to control our environment tends to result in devitalized foods, polluted air and water, acid rain, iatrogenic illnesses, and a whole species facing eminent extinction, without truly keeping us the least bit safer from any true danger.

Can the pursuit of an illusion of safety be a true human drive? We do not think so. What is universal is not necessarily inherent, nor essential. Since true safety lies in self-trust and self-respect, it would appear that something happens shortly after birth which causes us to trade off our true safety for the pursuit of an illusion.

We all know that every new born infant has a deep need for survival and an inescapable dependence on others for that survival.

The infant human being has "a birthright of wholeness" that includes self–trust, self–acceptance, self–respect, and self–love.

So, assuming that the infant has what he needs from himself to feel safe; that he also has an overriding need to survive; and that he is, initially, totally dependent on others for that survival, we can see that the stage is set for a trade-off that will result in future problems with self, others, and the environment.

Illusion

This need to control may appear to be an integral part of being human. However, since control is an illusion, the need to control cannot be an integral part of humanness.

Abandonment, Abuse, Control

If the infant is abandoned, either physically or emotionally, he will die. If the infant is abused, either physically or emotionally, his survival is threatened.

The infant cannot truly control but he can tell himself that he can and that he is the controller.

More likely he tells himself that just as soon as he has more data and can do it right he will be in control forever and thus have his survival and safety assured for all time.

Of course he must also assure the safety of those he is dependent upon. Total dependency is a difficult position and the best defence is the illusion of omnipotence.


No human is perfect. No environment is perfect. No infant, regardless of the wisdom and best intentions of his parents can come through childhood unscathed.
We all fear abandonment.
We all fear abuse.
We all have abandoned, either ourselves or others.
We all have abused ourselves or others.
We all have been abandoned or abused in some way. It is inescapable.
Our defense is control—so it can't happen again, so it can't destroy us, so we can feel safe. This may sound terrible. We do not believe it is so.

It is through our struggles with these issues that we gain our human self-reflective consciousness, our strengths and our values, our character, our abilities, our empathy, and our understandings.

The Things We Forget
We take on beliefs to order our infantile universe and give us the feeling of safety necessary for life and sanity. The problem is that these beliefs are soon relegated to the unconscious where they continue to actively order our reality, attitudes, and behaviors long after our true dependency is gone; long after abandonment ceases to be a life–threatening issue; long after abuse needs to be accepted.

Filters
These beliefs act as screens or filters which limit and order incoming stimuli and information. Such filters would be necessary under any condition. The data a human needs to collect about his external world reality comes in such quantity that it must somehow be filtered. Data must be limited, constellated, and focused in some way in order to be useful. So the filtering process is natural and necessary.

However, if the information that is incoming has emotional or physical life–threatening potential, the infant develops filters to block the threat—a distorted world view that will support sanity and the feeling of safety and, of course, the feeling of being in control. The infant must protect the parents' world view.

Example
Let us say a baby is born to parents who wanted him and planned for him; parents who are intelligent, conscientious, and loving. These parents have read all the books on child-rearing and have listened to their doctor well.

The consensus, as they have been able to parse it out, is that the baby should be fed whenever it appears to be hungry (to take care of its emotional needs) but no more often than every three hours (to take care of its physical needs) and no longer than 15 minutes at a time (to avoid colic and gas).

Making Sense Out of Nonsense
Well, this baby happens to be a slow eater (at first) and truly feels abandoned, abused and threatened when the milk supply is removed, before he is satisfied, by a cooing mother who wants to be sure that her baby does not suffer the pains of colic. So the baby cries, kicks, screams and otherwise expresses his need.

He is then held, rocked, cuddled, walked, and bounced while he feels his mother's tension, fear and resentment heighten. Somehow, he feels he is doing something wrong. His environment is not supportive. Finally, two hours and forty-seven minutes later, he has another chance.

Humans are very adaptable; infants are almost infinitely adaptable. This baby learns to eat as quickly as possible. This baby learns that satisfying his need causes pain (he is, of course, colicky). This baby learns that his environment becomes tense and uncomfortable when he makes his needs known.

This baby may take on two beliefs from this truly loving interchange. He may take on the belief that "I must grab what I need as quickly and completely as possible even if it causes pain or I will be abandoned, abused, hungry, in worse pain, and I will die." He may take on the belief that "I must see others' needs as more important than mine and make them comfortable, even if it hurts me or I will displease them. They will become frightened and tense and I will be abandoned and die." (Whether they die first or not, the outcome is the same.)

So Hard to Please

We may also encounter an adult who says to us:
"I am miserable. No matter what I do, my husband gets angry. I try so hard to please him. He says he loves me but he is always discounting me and putting me down. I just can't do anything right."

As we explore we discover:

1. She never tells him how she truly feels or what she truly thinks or needs or wants. She tells him what she assumes he wants to hear;

2. When he fails to respond to what she truly wants, she feels hurt and gets revenge in a passive-aggressive manner;

3. When he gets angry at this, she tells herself she doesn't understand what happened.

She tries so hard to please him and he doesn't understand her. They repeat this and repeat this and repeat this. If we suggest that she try telling him what she really feels and wants, she says, "Oh, I couldn't. If he really loved me he would know."

If we approach this from a belief standpoint, we may discover that she has a whole set of beliefs acting in this area.

They may well be:

·I Must please others OR they will dislike me and leave me.

·I Must avoid being disliked, or left, OR I will be all alone forever and terribly lonely.

·I Must avoid being alone or lonely OR I will prove I am unloveable and deserve to be abandoned.

·I Must avoid abandonment OR I will die.

·I Must stay in control and avoid being seen as I truly am OR I will see I was truly abandoned and experience my rage.

·I Must avoid expressing anger or rage OR those I care about will abandon me by dying, it will be all my fault, and I will deserve to die.

A Lack of Choice
Since she probably picked a mate with complementary beliefs, the odds are they will work hard at keeping the interactions along a similar theme. In this way they are miserable, frantic, hurt, and angry; but, any other way will leave them threatened and unsafe. That must be avoided at all costs. As long as she has these beliefs her behavior cannot change with internal congruency.

How many of you have ever run across the belief, either in yourselves or in others, no matter how well disguised, that "If someone truly loves me, I either have them fooled and they will quit loving me when they get to know the real me or they are so dumb that I can't trust their love?"

This belief is almost pandemic because in order to socialize us, our parents and authority figures make us earn love by acting in ways they want. If we have to earn love, then it comes by what we do — not by what and who we are. So, what and who we are isn't good enough. How many of us really loved sitting up straight at the dinner table, not fidgeting, sharing our toys, being polite to all our family members, chewing with our mouths closed, keeping our elbows at our side, eating our liver, not talking too loudly, and using the little fork first? Very few of us, I think.

But the wisest and most adaptable learned to pretend we did and we were approved of, bragged about, accepted and loved—necessary, useful, supportive but insidiously self–destructive. We're never quite good enough.

Definition
We share this with our clients, our patients, our mates, our parents, our children, and our peers. We can also let go of it and reclaim our birthright of self–love, self–acceptance, self–respect, self–trust, and move on to true safety—letting go of the illusions and giving to others from our own wholeness and fullness without strings attached and without our self–worth depending on the response of others.

We have all encountered themes of Abandonment, Abuse and the Need–to–Control. we are defining abandonment as the life–death issue created by the felt or real removal of a life or emotional support; abuse as any disrespectful intrusion, whether physical, emotional or intellectual; and the need–to–control as the NEED to constrict or contain ourselves, others, or our environment to create the illusion of a predictable outcome to assure imagined safety.

Need To Control
The operative word in Need–to–Control is "need" which presupposes lack of choice and absence of option. It is usually an inescapable push that occurs outside of awareness. This is very different from exercising an option to control, which is viable, useful, and often necessary. The option to control promotes wise planning for the future, supportive structures, decisions, actions, and true self-responsibility. Feedback is noted and planning is fine tuned.

When control is exerted because of need it is the control itself that is foreground—repercussions are disregarded. When the result is contrary to what was desired, increased levels of control are applied almost compulsively with no awareness that it is the pursuit of illusion—the pursuit of omnipotence and omniscience.

The themes of abandonment, abuse, and the need–to–control are often the most difficult issues that we encounter as therapists. They arise during the therapy of a patient or client with overt psychosis, or psychotic potential; they arise during the resolution of the resistances of neurosis; and they appear during the depth therapy of a "normally neurotic" individual; and they insidiously elude us as we proceed on the quest for our own growth—the same themes of Abandonment, Abuse, and Need–to–Control.

Every psychological theory, every philosophical school, and every theological construct addresses in some manner these universal human issues. They have been basic to all the struggles of our human history. They have been basic to the underpinning of any theoretical approach.

Jung and his modern follower, Michael Fordham speak of Abandonment issues in the growth process. Fordham goes further to note that "...infant and child mentality...is a permanent feature of the development of anyone alive and growing." Alice Miller, of the Freudian lineage, speaks of the reality of Abuse and how it is covered with denial through a conspiracy between culture and the psychoanalyst's need to shield parents.

Other theoretical constructs, including the Existentialists, referred to Control issues and their impact on authentic intimacy and generative mental health. Yet, most, if not all of us, have elements of denial in these three germane areas. Freud contended that the incestuous memories of patients were evidence of the Oedipal wish and assumed to be fantasy wish–fulfillment. Alice Miller speaks of the need of many analysts to actively use the defense of denial when confronted with abuse issues.

Who?— Me? You?
Everybody!
These themes— Abandonment, Abuse, and the Need–to–Control are pandemic to the personality development of most, if not all, human beings regardless of personal, family, national, or professional history or culture. These themes occur in varying degrees in the acculturation process whether overt or covert, subtle or open, conscious or unconscious, intentional or accidental to the reality of the living process.
These themes are immediately confronted by the infant during the birthing process itself and immediately thereafter. Fordham also states, "...:An infant is primarily an integrated whole, and the primary self and its integrity are essential elements in development. The self preserves continuity of being and the infant's individuality....if this were so, then the self, being a closed system, must have another characteristic: it must deintegrate to bring the baby into relation with the mother. There could also follow a rhythm of integration, deintegration, integration."

With this in mind, we propose that the infant has his instinctual patterns, his genetic physical predisposition, his budding personality predisposition, his genetic intelligence,and a level of awareness intrinsic to his own beingness as his tools for survival. In addition, the infant possesses an archaic perceptual structure that tends toward collecting and primitively processing environmental/emotional—object relationship data—in an "Either/Or," black or white manner. In other words, we are simply saying that the infant's primary push or instinct is for survival which includes the meeting of base line physical and emotional needs.

If his physical needs are not met, the infant dies. If his emotional needs are not met, the infant dies. Therefore, shortly after birth, if not before, the infant begins to collect data and information about his external world reality. The potential information available is overwhelming in its quantity. We propose that soon in life the infant develops beginning internal structures to process this information for survival purposes — develops what one might call screens to limit and order the incoming stimuli and information to a limited and digestible level. If the information that is incoming has emotional or physical life threatening potential, the screens developed alter the perception and interpretation of the threat.

This often results in a distorted world view. Thus, a budding constellation of defenses with an archaic polar structure is being determined early in preverbal life to act as a set of filter—filters to order life–supportive or life non–supportive experiences in a manner that permits survival, physically and emotionally—even if the locus of the threat must be distorted.

I Must—OR—Worse
This budding constellation of defenses is, we propose, the beginning of Unconscious Belief Structures. These beliefs always seem to have an archaic "Either/Or" structure: "I Must behave in a certain manner Or something terrible will happen...disaster...I will die or disappear." The first part (the "I Must" part) of the Belief is often perceived as ego syntonic by self–reflective adults. The "OR" alternative tends to be perceived as ego dystonic and thus threatening even if verbalized abstractly.

Myths hint at archetypal beliefs. They may take the archetypal form that, when put into words sounds like — "I MUST control myself, feel controlled by others or circumstances, and/or control others OR I will be out of control, helpless, overwhelmed by fear, be totally unsafe and die or be destroyed."

Or it may be: "I MUST stay in control by abandoning myself (e.g. cutting off or discounting my own needs, wants, desires, feelings, etc.), by abandoning others (e.g. leaving them first - either physically or emotionally) and/or getting or feeling abandoned by others (e.g. pushing them to leave first, not perceiving their supportive actions and gestures, etc.) OR I will be out of control, see that I felt truly abandoned as a child, be helpless, worthless and die or disappear."

Abuse—too!
The same thing seems to occur with the issue of abuse. Each of the three elements link into the other — "I must abuse myself (call myself dumb or stupid, discount myself, hurt myself, etc.) and since I then do not respect myself, I expect to be abused, and therefore set it up, refusing to take care of myself in the process until I feel justified enough to abuse others." And the Belief will sound like:

"I MUST stay in control by abusing myself, getting myself abused, and /or abusing others OR I will be out of control, see that I was truly abused as a child, be helpless, worthless and die and disappear."

Isn't it odd how much this sounds like the triangular game identified as part of the alcoholic process—victim, rescuer, persecutor? We suspect this is where an almost universal process has been uncovered and seen the most clearly.

Change
If unconscious beliefs that make up the belief structure are to be challenged and reconstructed at all, they must be reconstructed by a new, corrective experience that can touch or be translated to the unconscious on the same level of impact as the experience(s) that gave rise to the original belief. Only an experience that impacts this deeply can possibly challenge, change, replace or reconstruct the unconscious belief structure. Such naturally occurring corrective experiences are usually also crisis experiences that shatter defenses. The belief structure may or may not then be reconstructed in a manner that now provides options supportive of growth and wholeness.

Replacing a belief structure can take the route of traditional therapy which can be long and painful. Or it can be changed in the normal process of living through a fortuitous crisis that shatters the unconscious belief and simultaneously leaves a gap. This gap causes great pain—until the belief is replaced. When the gap is filled with a new belief, that new belief can easily be one that is equally constricting. A belief structure may also be challenged by rituals that are performed outside of their originally supportive cultural context—such as fire walking. Such an experience could replace the old belief with a new, possibly more damaging belief of omnipotence. Or it can be changed by meditation, fasting, or chanting excesses that erupt the unconscious into decompensation. Once again this process does not provide the proper support for a healthier recompensation and tends to produce unnecessary pain and dubious results.

A change process can also be initiated that circumvents crisis and respects the unconscious, emotional, intellectual and cognitive aspects of the individual. The intellect itself can be used to identify patterns of behavior and to hypothesize possible beliefs. The beliefs themselves—relegated to the unconscious—are in fact self–regulating, the basic archtypal belief itself being ego dystonic. The intellect in conjunction with one's creativity and the support of a trained therapist, a therapist without the belief in question, can find a replacement belief that truly increases options moving away from the trap of "Either/Or" and moving toward choicefulness, true responsibility, and the possibility of true wholeness.

World View
All incoming information is processed through that belief structure. In this way the world view of the family is maintained and the child is protected. That world view will continue to pervade the growing child's (and later adult's) perceptions. As long as the underlying belief structure is intact—as long as it is unchallenged and not replaced—that world view will endure.

Support
Therapeutic intervention can gently support the identification, verbalization, and definition of a replacement belief. It is necessary to watch carefully for loopholes which the client's unconscious may provide to retain the familiar status quo.

Reverse Dream
We assume that the dreaming process is a communication— a communication from the UNCONSCIOUS which stores repressed and as yet unexpressed information in the form of "coded energy." When communicating to the conscious mind, the unconscious presents its information to what we would call the DREAM CONSCIOUSNESS.

We define dream consciousness as the consciousness that transforms this energetic communication into sensual symbolic representations that can be recalled by the CONSCIOUS mind. These representations then are often called DREAMS, symbolic scenarios that spontaneously occur during a variety of states of altered consciousness—symbolic scenarios that can be recalled and interpreted by the conscious mind and translated into awarenesses and intellectual concepts.

Using this model, one could assume that communication can be established with the unconscious in both directions. It is then possible to go from awareness to intellectual understanding and verbal descriptions. One can then take the next step to associative symbolism which the dream consciousness could translate back to energetic forms for the unconscious, as if in a reverse dream.

In this manner a therapist could support a client to replace an old maladaptive and constricting belief with a new supportive and enlivening one. The new belief would then be relegated to the unconscious and automatically support more constructive congruent behaviour and more accurate perceptions of the environment.

Once this is accomplished, other non-supportive beliefs will surface evidenced by inappropriate patterns of behaviour or perception and the process can be continued in a layering fashion going ever deeper until the archetypal belief itself can be approached.

These Unconscious Beliefs are not what we tend to think we believe, say we believe, or even what our deep internal knowing says is true.

In this context, belief structures are well constellated highly specific unconscious defensive structures or complexes that are supported by the family world view, the culture and often by therapeutic complicity. Often the therapist sharing a particular unconscious belief with his client will be as blind to it as is the client himself. As adults, these beliefs are unavailable to conscious awareness of the client, patient, or therapist. They are only evidenced by patterned behaviour and more subtly by patterned perceptions. Like wind, they cannot be seen. Yet, their effects are often obvious and persistent.

Like the Wind
They can only be extrapolated by an exploration with the client of what type of belief would support such a patterned behaviour, thought pattern, or perceptual distortion. Such extrapolation could explain and define the roots of patterns whether in an individual, family, identified group, community, nation, or the human race itself.

Considering the beliefs' "Either/Or" structure they are indeed self–perpetuating; the "Or" alternatives promote overwhelming fear that can be translated to damnation, psychosis, death, and destruction on a deep psychic/existential level.
Such beliefs can and do promote true self– and other– destruction in an insidious manner. Although, realistically, the adult has other options, he is in fact responding from the viewpoint of an infant with severely limited options.

For example, an adult cannot really be abandoned in a manner that is truly life threatening—unless his arms and legs are broken, and he is dragged deep into the wilderness in inclement weather and there left to his own devices.

An adult can be easily left—with all the accompanying sadness and mourning—but that kind of being left is vastly different from the abandonment that is a survival issue. Often, however, humans respond to being left as if it were in fact Abandonment, that is, a life and death issue.

Birthright
We propose that the infant human being has a birth right of self–trust, self–acceptance, self–respect, and self–love.

*To support a belief of self–abandonment one would have to trade off the birthrights of self–acceptance and self–love.

*To support a belief of self– and other– abuse, he/she would have to trade off self–respect and self–love.

*To support a need to control, he/she would have to trade off self–trust and self–love.

All the above trades would be done only to maintain an illusion of safety, that in truth, is self–deceptive, to maintain physical existence and homeostasis. A trade that most of us would agree is worth the cost until the child reaches an age of maturation wherein his options and resources are expanded.

The primal belief is indeed a choiceless stance even with the "Either/Or" since the alternative threatens physical or existential life. The adult has many more options to move into a growth process rather than maintaining a survival modalilty. A family or national process that is based on abandonment beliefs, abusive and intrusive beliefs, and/or a need to control belief results in a stagnation of development that leads to unsupported growth and self– and other– destruction.

If there is an "Original Sin" universal to mankind, it is the Need–to–Control — the need to constrict ourselves and others and the need to intrude. This Need–to–Control, we propose, is the direct result of ordinary and extraordinary childhood trauma originating at the onset of life in this world — few, if any of us, escape childhood unscathed.

Who of us can, with self–honesty, take a position of total freedom from this dilemma? Without such awareness, our blind spots can taint not only our interactions with our clients and patients but the very lives we live as individuals, friends, lovers, parents, group members, professionals, community members, institutional participants, members of a nation, and co–habitants of a world that can exist superbly without our presence.

Perhaps this could qualify as a good set of alternative beliefs.

Tell this to yourself and see if it doesn't make you feel better.

"My value, worth, identity and purpose are intrinsic to my beingness, having been given to me as a free gift from a source much wiser and more powerful than I or any other being past, present or future. My value, worth and identity are independent of what I or others do, think, feel, say and believe, and independent of all expectations, mine and others, real or imagined, independent of my past history, family, childhood, gender and independent of any or all relationships and independent of any fantasy. They cannot earned or deserved, traded or stolen, lost or given away --- They just are.

I can see myself as I am and show others or not show others any aspect of myself that I choose, realising that I can use a role or fantasy to support me when it fits and release it when it no longer supports me. I am not a role, a player in a fantasy nor am I what I do. I have the right, option, freedom, and true responsibility to take care of myself and take charge of my life and get my needs met and both respect for myself and others.

My primary responsibility is for myself and I can respect everyone else's right to take care of themselves, even if I disagree with their methods. I can respect their right not to take care of themselves. I owe nothing to anyone and no one owes me. I can see and accept that my life is a free gift. I can accept all of me without making any one aspect of me more important than the rest of me including: my intellect, my needs, all my feelings including my joy, anger, sadness, excitement, and fear, my body, my sensuality, my sexuality, and my spirituality. I can trust myself and that self-respect will support my only true safety. I can be with what is, as it is, in any given moment. I can respect the humanity of others.

I can realise that a choice is made in a moment in time depending on available information and awareness. In the next moment, my information and awareness may change providing the basis for a possible new choice. As I grow, I can see more and more choices that are available to me. I can own my right to make mistakes and the option to learn from them -and so does everyone else. I can become aware how others respond to me as an expression of their needs, wants, desires, lusts, unresolved conflicts, and/or choices and, as such tells nothing about me and, of course, vice versa. I can accept true support that is offered and I can, with judgement, request support from others realising that a true request accepts a yes, no or non answer. I can always ask at another time or someone else.

I can realise all my feelings are valid. I can choose to express my feelings or not, without having to bury them or turn them into guilt. With judgement, I can choose to express them overtly or covertly, directly or indirectly, in this moment or at another in time, passively or actively and in any tone that I choose. I am in charge of my feelings and their expression. They are not in charge of me.

I can never truly be abandoned--only left. and I can deal with the sadness that may accompany being left. I can connect with the support of my deeper Self and I can connect with the even deeper support that comes from the Source of my existence.

I can own my wisdom upon which my judgement and dicernment is based. I can own my power and inner authoirty. I can own my freedom and my right to Life. I am unique and ordinary as is every other being in the universe, including every grain of sand, birds, and beasts of land and of sea."



How to do it yourself:

1. Ask yourself what your core beliefs are and write down the answers you receive.

2. Recognize that the intention of each of the beliefs you uncover was to keep you safe. Replace "keep you safe" with your own words.

3. Don't rush the first two steps. Take as many days as needed to really identify your beliefs and begin to understand their intention.

4. Ask yourself which beliefs you want to hold onto for now.

5. Ask yourself which beliefs you want to let go of now.

6. Cross out in your writings the beliefs you are willing to let go of now.

7. Acknowledge and allow the beliefs that you want to hold onto for now.

8. Once you realize that you are ready to release another belief--and it may take some time--bring each belief (one at a time) into your heart and allow it to heal.

9. Ask yourself what new belief you would like to have (to replace the old belief) and listen for your answers.

10. State your new belief out loud. Repeat steps 8 and 9 for each belief.

Now rejoice!

About Lexi Simoncelli and family

Lexi ~ 29 year old fiancee to Compeer the love of my life he picked me up when i was down and showed me true love and made my life whole. He not only took on me but he took on the children as his own and loves them equally. We will be getting married in december when i will finally be Mrs Raa cant wait !!!!! Police chief / teacher love my jobs equally Mummy to Roxie 3 year old bubbly little girl who is a princess loves anything pink / Layla 18 month old little cupcake brought into our lives by the wonderful Cinn and we are so so happy to have her loves to crawl and get into mischief / Lilly 4 months old little angel daddys girl loves her rattle and her toy elephant

finally found our forever home in ocean pointe i never felt settled till now I have been to many places tried many times to settle but i know this is where we were meant to end up. been through alot but it brought us all together and made us stronger.

Cinn and Ja our mom/dad  The best parents and friends we could wish for they welcomed me into there family with open arms and took on our brood the girls love there nana/papa very much.

note from Cinn:

   Lexi is the Police Chief in Ocean Pointe.  She does a remarkable job and we wouldn't be Ocean Pointe without Lexi and her care and compassion.

ALERTS TO THREATS From JOHN CLEESE

some much needed levity in today's life.


ALERTS TO THREATS

IN 2013 EUROPE

From JOHN CLEESE


The English are feeling the pinch in relation to recent events in Syria and have therefore raised their security level from "Miffed" to "Peeved." Soon, though, security levels may be raised yet again to "Irritated" or even "A Bit Cross." The English have not been "A Bit Cross" since the blitz in 1940 when tea supplies nearly ran out. Terrorists have been re-categorized from "Tiresome" to "A Bloody Nuisance." The last time the British issued a "Bloody Nuisance" warning level was in 1588, when threatened by the Spanish Armada.


The Scots have raised their threat level from "Pissed Off" to "Let's get the Bastards." They don't have any other levels. This is the reason they have been used on the front line of the British army for the last 300 years.


The French government announced yesterday that it has raised its terror alert level from "Run" to "Hide." The only two higher levels in France are "Collaborate" and "Surrender." The rise was precipitated by a recent fire that destroyed France 's white flag factory, effectively paralyzing the country's military capability.


Italy has increased the alert level from "Shout Loudly and Excitedly" to "Elaborate Military Posturing." Two more levels remain: "Ineffective Combat Operations" and "Change Sides."


The Germans have increased their alert state from "Disdainful Arrogance" to "Dress in Uniform and Sing Marching Songs." They also have two higher levels: "Invade a Neighbor" and "Lose."


Belgians, on the other hand, are all on holiday as usual; the only threat they are worried about is NATO pulling out of Brussels...


The Spanish are all excited to see their new submarines ready to deploy. These beautifully designed subs have glass bottoms so the new Spanish navy can get a really good look at the old Spanish navy.


Australia, meanwhile, has raised its security level from "No worries" to "She'll be right, Mate." Two more escalation levels remain: "Crikey! I think we'll need to cancel the barbie this weekend!" and "The barbie is canceled." So far no situation has ever warranted use of the last final escalation level.


Regards,
John Cleese,
British writer, actor and tall person


And as a final thought -- Greece is collapsing, the Iranians are getting aggressive, and Rome is in disarray. Welcome back to 430 BC.

Life is too short...

Atlantic Canadian Fine Art

                                                            

                                                            Cathleen Richards-Green
                                                             Atlantic Canadian Fine Art
                                                                  Announcement
                            
                            
Cathleen would like everyone in Ocean Pointe to know that a new Plein air Oil Painting  titled: *Autumn On The Barnaby* has now become available in the local gallery at 7 Hyde Park Street.

While you are there check out her October Special $$ Painting:
                         *Harvest Moon Light*

My Favorite Things..my answer should just be JAY in big letters

Welcome to the 2013 edition of getting to know your friends. Okay, here's  what you're supposed to do, and try not to be lame and spoil the fun!

Change all  the answers so that they apply to you. Then send this to a whole bunch of  people you know, INCLUDING the person that sent it to you.   Some of you may get this several times (that means you have lots of friends). The answers of mine are down below.

This is Jay.. this is the man who floats my boat

And the man behind the avi...is even more awesome!!

                                                                     I LOVE JAY



Display name:  Cinn Hansome
Account name: Aine highfield  (who??????)


01. What is your occupation in SL? Queen of All I Can See (hums..God Save the Queen)

02. How many items in your inventory? 65 k and counting

03. What are you listening to right now? Jay crunching on pretzels

04. What was the last thing you ate? chicken rice soup sans chicken

05. Can you drive a stick shift? nope and its a good thing
   
06. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? midnight blue

07. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Jenny (my rl daughter)
   
08. Do you like the person who sent you this? yes!
       
09. How old are you today? 3 yrs 9 mo in sl.... over 21 a few times in rl
10. Favorite drink? Diet Pepsi or Diet Coke-a-Cola
  
11. What's your favorite sport to watch? Baseball

12. Have you ever dyed your hair? HELL yeah!

13. Pets? In SL or RL? RL- Dog and Jay- SL dog and Jay

14. Favorite food?? pizza- the crack cocaine of food

15. what day? April 3- Day I met Jay

16. Favorite day of year? October 31st/ Samhain (pronounce  "SOW HAN")/Halloween

17. What do you do to vent your anger? cry

18. What was your favorite toy as a child? my toodles baby doll and my red tricycle (whoever stole it better give it back!!)

19. Whats your favorite season? Autumn

20. Hugs or Kisses? both

21. Cherry or blueberry? Cherry
      
22. Do you want your friends to send you this back to you? YES!
     
23. Who is most likely to respond? I never know for sure

24. Who is least likely to respond?  YOU

25. When was the last time you laughed? just a second ago.
    
26. When was the last time you cried? Today

27. What is on the floor of your closet? have no closet

28. Who is the friend you have had the longest you are sending this to? Toni

29. Favorite smells? a man fresh out of the shower

30. Who inspires you?  almost everyone I meet in one way or another

31. What are you afraid of?  a life without love

32. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? Cheese

33. Favorite car? 69 Plymouth Barracuda- white fast back 2 door red leather interior

34. Favorite cat breed? alive ones

35. Number of keys on your key ring? have no key ring
          
36. How many years in your current job?  being queen??.. almost my entire life

37. How many states have you lived in? 1

38. US States? Massachusetts

39. Do you think you're fun? of course..if you don't believe it..just ask me!!!


please post your favs too!!

I AM FROM BOSTON!! ((The woman behind the avi))

 I don't pronounce my R's

I call a liquor store a packie

A garbage can a rubbish barrel

I call carbonated soft drinks tonic.

A water fountain a bub blah

I call sprinkles jimmies

I call a milkshake a frappe

I root for a team that hasn't won a World Series since 2007 (TILL THIS YEAR!!))

I yell Yankees Suck whenever I can.

I say good things are wicked pissa and bad thing are pissa.

 I think Larry Bird is the greatest basketball player ever .

I think Ted Williams and David Ortiz  are the greatest hitters of all time

.
Bobby Orr revolutionized the defensive position forever.

Cam Neely was the best power forward to ever play the game.

Vinatieri never has to hit a field goal again, and Tom Brady's the next Joe Montana.

To me any place west of Rt. 128 is the boonies, and Cape Cod is a little piece of heaven on Earth.

The best thing to do on a summer night is to watch the Sox with lots of Fenway franks and ice cold beer.

I ride the T.

I know better than to swim in the Charles, but I do love that dirty water.....

Damn straight I'm a F-ing Bostonian... and I' m wicked proud of it !!!


About the woman behind the avi
The RL Cinn

 birthday - June 13th

Favorite color : purple - any shade and white

Favorite flower: white lilacs, lily of the valley, daisies

Favorite Fruit: ranier cherries and blueberries

Favorite food-  cheap..PIZZA/not so cheap..Lobster (like chinese food too)

Favorite Candy: chocolate (esp M&M's... and fancy truffles)

Favorite smells -a man clean from the shower and the smell of sex

Favorite Musician: Eric Clapton

Favorite Holiday: Halloween -wicked fun and the beginning of the holiday season (but I am a holiday junkie... love them all)

Favorite animal: Dog

Favorite car- 1969 Barracuda fast back white with red leather interior

Favorite Authors: Arthur Conan Doyle, Agatha Christie, Stephen King, Robin Cook, Tony Hillerman, Sue Grafton, Lewis Carroll, Douglas Preston & Lincoln Childs, Jane Austen, Charlotte Bronte,  Anne Rice and too many more to list..

Favorite Book: Usually the one I am currently reading.. lol

Favorite Movies: Lost Boys, Tank Girl, Sleepless in Seattle, League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, Prancer, Elf, Big Trouble in Little China, Highlander, and any Winnie the Pooh Movie..lol..

Hobbies: Reading, Gardening (I grow flowers and herbs and tomatoes if I can), Cooking (I cook well), Baking (I bake well), and of course SL,  and baseball!


Scared Of - the dark, the unknown  and of disappointing someone

Do you think you're funny? funniest when I am not trying to be

Happiest When-I am reading..I actually immerse myself in the book. I have done that since I was a kid. My personal escape.. ( I am pretty damn happy with DR..just saying)

My worst habit- PROCRASTINATION...

My best characteristic- my ability to love unconditionally ,  care completely and forgive absolutely.. I never hold a grudge- waste of time...

I love music...specially blues and rock music... and I have always been a sucker for a mean guitar...music is a way to express my soul....my life is "interesting right now"... "I got this feeling that something ain't right.. I am trying to make sense of it all, but I can see it makes no sense at all..I don't think I can take any more.. And I’m wondering how I’ll get down the stairs....I have clowns to the left of me and jokers to the right" like I said "INTERESTING"... and I collect bunnies& ,seashells . I love Cape Cod- all seasons. I love Disneyworld...I would live there if I could! lol ..

I get off on 57 Chevys; I get off on screaming guitar.
Like the way it hits me every time it hits me.
I've got a rock and roll heart.

I am a sensuous & crazy woman who loves life's luxuries - tastes, smells, sounds, feelings, images... I need to indulge this part of me- delicious, tantalizing food and drink; gently scented candles, perfumes, powders, incense; wonderful music from sexy, sulty jazz to bone-shaking blues; soft, comfortable clothing and richly textured bedding and surrounded by beautiful, peaceful colors. I am a dreamer with my feet firmly planted in the stars.  When I love a man I devote my self to him, his pleasure, his joy and him alone..he becomes my everything!! And I want it that way! When you love a man, he becomes more than a body. His physical limbs expand, and his outline recedes, vanishes. He is rich and sweet and right. He is part of the world, the atmosphere, the blue sky and the blue water. He is everything. (DR is my everything)


Once inside a woman's heart
A man must keep his head
Heaven opens up the door
Where angels fear to tread
Some men go crazy
Some men go slow
Some men go just where they want
Some men never go.......

Too many people here in SL think love is a fool's game..some trite, easy words that slip off the tongue & are meaningless off this monitor..but a woman's heart is a fragile, wondrous thing filled with love & passion.  A woman's heart is filled with dreams...she longs for the man who doesn't try to understand her, or change her, who can just love her.   A woman's love is precious & miraculous.. it can transform a man into what he hopes to be. A woman's love & devotion can be yours forever... but not without attention & romance.  Remember, love isn't a game...on or off SL.  No one has the right ot break another's heart.

A woman's appetite is twice that of a man's; her sexual desire, four times; her intelligence, eight times. Sanskrit proverb

Monday Musings

While you SCREAM at your woman, there's a man wishing he could whisper softly in her ear.

While you HUMILIATE, OFFEND and INSULT her, there's a man flirting with her and reminding her how wonderful, bright and beautiful she is.

While you IGNORE your woman & TAKE HER FOR GRANTED, there's a man wishing he could make love to her.

While you treat your woman like a MAID, a COOK and a NANNY, there is a man who wants to treat her like a princess.

  While you make your woman CRY there's a man stealing smiles from her...


Copy, Paste and Repost this if you are against Domestic Violence ♥

(Cinn's note...this goes in reverse too ladies..many men are brutalized physically and psychologically and are manipulated by the very women they love)

Happy Sunday All!!

Happy November!! Happy Sunday!!  It's almost MOOSE Monday!!

I hope things are well for all of you..updating you on what is going on in Ocean Pointe in November-

November 1, 8, 15, 21, 29- Block Party at Shenanigan's- Family Friendly- Everyone Welcome!!

Block Parties

3pm - 5pm SLT  Every Friday at Shenaigans

Themes and Contests:

November 8- What Will You Be When You Grow UP?? Dress for success..  The best will win 500L!!

November 15- Superhero/heroines..The best wins 500L!!

November 21- Black & White- wear one or the other or both!! The best wins 500L!!

November 29- Best in Country!! The best wins 500L....Ride the BULL win 500L!!

NOVEMBER 11TH- REMEMBRANCE DAY PARADE/VETERAN'S DAY PARADE IN OP
We will have the Royal Canadian Mounted Police (Motorcycle Unit), as well as our own police and fire dept-  Any one who is a Veteran or the widow of a Veteran is welcome to march in the parade.  Please contact JA Hansome.

GREEDY  TUESDAYS!!!

  Play Greedy with your friends and neighbors... games start at 7pm slt

TRIVIA WEDNESDAYS!!!

    Test your knowledge of all that is useless and obscure!!  There is a 25L prize to the first right answer!!  games start at 5pm slt


Coming Soon!!  

Bowling Night and 

Cards Against Humanity (R RATED)- if you haven't play this really fun game...you will love it!!  Not for Children.


More info as I have it

About Hansome Medical Center in Ocean Pointe

       Hello, This is Dr Cinn.  

These first pictures are of our two baby boys, Lj (little Jay) and Chip.  They were a happy surprise to both Jay and I, as we have 2 grown up kids, Angel and Comp.  We have a wonderful family. I have been on Second Life now for over 3yrs and have loved every day of it.  I have sisters, Toni, Free, Jen, Lilianna and Tori and a brother, byrd.  And I am blessed to have byrd's wife, Jackie and their 4 beautiful children, Joi, Jack, Kevin and Kathy in my life, as well as Toni's partner, Jackson.  I have been to college and have a degree in Nursing, one in Science  and one in Counseling Psychology.  I have also studied Respiratory Therapy. In Second Life, I have met Jay...the most wonderful, marvelous and amazing man, who is talented, brilliant ..I could go on and on and quite frequently I do. lol.  Jay is not only the love of my Second Life, but the true love of my First Life.  He is the reason I smile; he is the macaroni to my cheese, the peanut butter to my honey, the milk to my cookie, the blue to my sky, the sweet to my dreams, the best to my friend....the only love of my life!

    Jay and I founded Hansome Medical Center in January 2013, because we saw a need.  We felt that everyone on Second Life, should be able to have real experiences..ones perhaps they don't have in First Life.  And what more wonderous experience than the birth of a child.  We looked at the cookie cutter clinic and hospitals that were around and knew there was a better way.  A Clinic that truly cares for the individual and family.  Where the health care team is a family and applies those family values ... caring for each person like a brother or sister, son or daughter.  That is how we started and Hansome Medical Center has turned full service clinic with Pediatrics, Adult Health, Counseling, OB/GYN, including a specialized High Risk Clinic and a Neonatal Specialist, as well as an in house Pharmacy.
We had our boys after we broke ground on the medical center. That was a surprise!!!      At Hansome Medical, I am priviledged to work with the love of my life ever day!

I always want to be available to any of my patients.. they know they can call on me anytime, any day.  I am there for them.  I do so love my work here!!  And I love our patients!!


Lj and Chip with Hannah and Dakota(Dj)

Cinn Hansome..about me

    Hi!!  I am Cinn Hansome. My husband Jay and I have designed and built a Family Community Sim, Ocean Pointe.
    We searched Second Life for the perfect neighborhood and perfect home.  Since, we couldn't find any place that met our needs, we decided to build our own community, so Ocean Pointe was formed.
   I also am the owner of Hansome Medical Center..the finest medical facility in Second Life for realism and attention to detail.
    On Ocean Pointe we have built cozy apartments, elegant townhouses and stately family homes.  We are family friendly- Zooby babies and children avis.
    Our goal is always to have a small town with seasonal beauty, where we have lots of green spaces, lots of things to do, beautiful homes and neighbors you can count on.

There are many benefits of living at Ocean Pointe, among them are:

*friendly neighbors
*free health insurance,
*free use of all public grounds including but not limited to:

* parks to explore- with bunnies, raccoon, birds, deer
* beaches to walk
* playgrounds for zooby babies & children of all ages
* schools- preschool & dancing school
* restaurants- Papa Jorden's Pizza, Maple Leaf Cafe, La Cucina, Tim Horton's
* children's library
*campgrounds (cabins & campsites) with cliff diving- watch out for moose & bears
*St Stephen's Church
*Shenanigan's Pub
*shopping
adding more for you..everyday

Roleplay Opportunities for Residents

- Fire Department
- Police Department
- Daycare & Preschool
- Restaurants and more..

 

This is my wonderful husband, JA Hansome.  I luckily became his partner July 2, 2012 and am blessed to have married him on July 16, 2012.

The love of my life - 1st and 2nd.

The brains and brawn behind Ocean Pointe

You will never meet a kinder, more understanding, more generous man!!

He is bright, witty, talented, loving and completely amazing.

 We go together like...
Macaroni & Cheese
Kisses & Hugs
Peanut Butter & Honey
Movies & Popcorn
Bacon & Eggs
Salt & Pepper
Copy & Paste
Hammer & Nails
Chocolate & Strawberries
Moon & Stars
Cheeseburger & French Fries
Candles & Romance
Music & Lyrics
Cookies & Milk
Like Legos.. we fit perfectly together and it's almost impossible to pull us apart


When love has fused and mingled two beings in a sacred and angelic unity, the secret of life has been discovered so far as they are concerned; they are no longer anything more than the two boundaries of the same destiny.

Love demands everything, they say, but my love demands only this: that no matter what happens or how long it takes, you`ll keep faith in me, you`ll remember who we are, and you`ll never grow impatient with me.

You bring magic in to my real life.. I want to thank you, baby!  We met April 3rd and my life has never been the same...and never will be. I never want us to end.  We are love..

These our our baby twin sons, JA, Jr and Chip

Our little angels and a joy in our lives.

They were born January 23, 2013.

Little Jay and Chip...they were not planned.. and it was something both Jay and I said we would never do.. but somehow,,someway... it all seems right...

We loved them and each other so much we tried for a baby girl!!

We got pregnant with our baby girl, but she brought a baby brother along

New babies due in January 2014.

   In the meantime,  Hannah and Dakota found us and we adopted them in May 2013.. they have been such a delight.

And now two more on the way.. not a surprise.. we went from 2 to 6 in a few months.. and I could me more shocked or more happy.

I love Big Jay more than words can ever express..
and having his babies is both an honor and a joy!

Everyday, every experience we have., good and bad brings us closer and more in love

Thank you for loving me..one more day.

 And in the end
 The love you take
 Is equal to the love you make

    Although, it can be tough being a wife, mother,  doctor, sim owner; I would not change my life for anything.  I have never been so happy and so content in my life.


        I believe in true love. I believe in love at first sight.  I believe love lasts forever. I believe that every one of us has a soul mate. I believe the course of real love is not easy, but I also believe it is worth every second. I believe in happily ever afters. I believe in miracles.  I believe in Jay.



      I'm a sensuous, sensual & crazy woman who loves life's little luxuries. I may be a flirt and a tease, but I love my man completely. I talk too much and feel too much.  I am a dreamer with my feet firmly planted in the stars.

   NOT CAPABLE OF BEING SILENCED OR SUBDUED (ask my sisters, or my Jay). If I am your friend,  it's because I love you unconditionally. The things I love best have no price tag.

    I'm blessed with loving family/friends but only one true love. (Yes, Jay it's you!)  Jay is the champion I have waited my whole life for. I have been so lucky to have found real love here with an amazing man.

    

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
― Bob Marley